its not easy

I don’t know how I get the strength to get through this, living a life with someone by your side but eventually he’s miles away from what you expected can give a very ghastly feeling. Some people just couldn’t careless about others. I should say life is not as easy as it seems, when you're living on your own in this wild world but i will try my very best to keep holding on and eliminate this spiteful feeling.till now it is surprising enough for every people who knows me and even myself that i have this "sukatilah" attitude. Maybe now I should say that I’ve retired from being a devoter.simply bcoz im tired, just plain tired.