colour me rainbow

money cant buy me love

2009-07-01T11:53:00.000-07:00

Death of The most influential and gifted singer, MJ awakes me that the sparkle of wealth and fame cant buy me love.

hidden.

2009-06-12T01:15:00.000-07:00

My life has been a rollercoaster, as expected, there were peaks and valley but yet the journey is still on. As my heart pumping faster, i realised after all life isn’t that easy. i didn’t ought to spit out my feelings and get all emotional here, but i just want to say how I’ve woke up from this dreams. How i realise on this particular land I’m living, “earth” creature like angels and demons do exist.They were somehow hidden under our own shadow.

busy!busy!busy!

2009-03-19T05:26:00.000-07:00

"a heart without a beat"

3 weeks to go

and im still

hoping,hunting and striving

for the BEST!

what a "turn off"

2008-12-09T08:54:00.000-08:00

After i came across akuxpeduli blog i thought i should also write,the killer topic

“ how man can turn me off”.

1.a man who haunt for popularity in every circumstances just because he likes to be in the centre of attention. Hey wake up! The word popularity itself comes naturally. You don’t need to pretend and act cool when you are actually not.

2.talking without thinking. Make sense of what u are trying to say; rubbish will just make all the girls turn away. Please make use of your brain which can actually take every breath away. Knowledge is the power of all, so go and look for some. At least your partner won’t be embarrassed to stand by you.

3.norrow civic mindedness and lack of manners. From what i can see, this hitch has been spreading.. from one stage to another. Farting, burping, coughing without saying excuse me or maybe just get out of the way where no one can hear you or smell the toxic which cause us short of breath? What is wrong with all these people, pengotor la wei! eyyeeuuu.. oh ya, the civic mindedness people, please have some respect to all mankind which include Indonesian, Bangladeshi and Nigerian and also our nature. If not you will just bring humiliation to our country.

4. big-headed. I don’t really care what label or brand you are wearing, so stop showing off and you don’t have to go detail about the price or what the brand is. You know what, i just don’t care!

5. proud of the so called deeds that they have done. Drinking (alcoholic), xaxau (did i spell it correctly?), cheating, clubbing, etc. Yeah, i know what the hell it’s your life and you have every right bla bla bla... you don’t need to shout it to the world expecting everyone will respect you for that.well, i just dont! How about just keep it to yourself. ill appreciate it.

to be continue...

relationship survey =)

2008-12-08T05:23:00.000-08:00

1) Single,taken,Crushing,Heartbroken?
= single and for now not interested.

2) Are you happy with that?
= sometimes

3) Would you kiss your ex?
= depends on the situation.

4) Have you ever had your heart broken?
= hell yeah!

5) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is ok?
=nah!xde maknenye.

6) Do you believe in love at first sight?
=yeah

7) Have you ever talked about marriage with another person?
hahaha yeah !

8) Do you want kids?
= someday,yeah.

9) How Many?
= four max

11) Have you ever fallen completely in love?
= yeah,i think so

12) Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
=yes yes yes

13) Do you believe you should change for someone?
=in certain aspect,yeah..im willing to

14) Have you ever told someone you loved them and didn't mean it?
= nope.

15) Do you believe in long distance relationships?
=i used to, but now im not sure about it. 50-50

16) From a scale from 1-10 how much do you like the person you like?
= rite now i dont like any particular person la

polygamy

2008-12-03T14:43:00.000-08:00

Let’s start with a very subjective word, “polygamy”. Most man before they commit themselves into a relationship they always believe that they will give entirely to that particular woman and claim that their love is incredibly strong and to fill her with full of love without hesitation. Some may believe and give their heart fully to their partner which is insanely stupid. I admit, few years back I’m reasonably dumb. Ok ok back to that particular word, polygamy. For me, the only ground a man can do such attitude is when their partner did not put any effort in improving the blooms and fire in their relationship and heart. In this case, it’s plain to see that by ditching your partner is a very thoughtful act. But how about when your partner is struggling every breath, hoping, bending, to make you notice that she is nothing less than perfect. I can’t see any reason why any man should have this brainless act (polygamy). I don’t think the quantity is such a great matter, why don’t they see through a different prospect which is the quality. I would like to question men who practice this polygamy act; don’t you have pride in you? Spitting every sweet word without saving them for whom it deserves, act hopelessly romantic to every girl in town. Telling lies, just to achieve your goals, to make yourself feel good and avert unnecessary pain to others. Dear man, please stop polygamy and learn to appreciate whom you have before it’s too late. Stop promising lies and stick to the one your love.

It’s worth it to have one who can love you eternally than many who only love you temporarily.

cupid,i told you not to..

2008-11-17T10:48:00.000-08:00

Too many times people shoot directly to my heart, how can they not see scars, wounds that not yet recover and yet still burning in fire, adding gas which cause explosion. How am i not giving up? I always wanted to believe and understand, but my life is puzzled, without having any clue where to start or to end. i just wish that i will find my destiny, the smile that can make me feel close, to sing me melody, who will be my everything. Now, i don’t really care all of it. Till the day i will find faith in love back again. My life fills with ups and down, just trying to fix every puzzle to be perfectly in place. in the depth of tenderness, Until i find love again....

k.e.c.e.l.a.r.u.a.n. "hati"

2008-11-11T23:07:00.000-08:00

Sometimes our feelings were meant to be unspoken, unwritten and unnoticeable.

diamonds in life.

2008-11-10T10:38:00.000-08:00

Sometimes, Things which we ought to conquer in life is unreachable. We start to sleep, dine, and even before we doze we won’t stop thinking about it. How goals, and targets affect our life. In order to set track to accommodate our own field of interest, a lot of hard work and effort should be plant in. To do the central planning would be the hardest part. Since he asked me, “ya, what’s your plan after this?” some sort of superior pressure start building playground in my mind. What exactly that i want in life? *i begin to wonder....

that day

2008-11-09T10:56:00.000-08:00

excited man

tenebrous woman

on a magnificent day

minggu ini.

2008-11-06T23:47:00.000-08:00

currently;

stress.

pimple.

dissapointed.

ambitious.

curious.

boredom.

nescafe.

exam.

usher.

mrs azizul

2008-11-03T05:20:00.000-08:00

kakak, u're now mrs azizul. it's weird having to share you with a man. now i can no longer sneak to ur room share stories that might hurt me along the way, filling our time gossiping, lepaking at the balcony till the stars run away,burn the mid night oil just to do silly things.but whatever it is I want you to know that in whatever circumstances you are in i will always be your little sister who will support you in every way.

im happy for you and abang.

may your love will keep on burning.

ill pray forever it will.

slamat pengantin baru sister.

i love u.

interesting?

2008-11-02T04:05:00.000-08:00

The boyfriend every girl would want

When you break her heart - [ the pain NEVER really goes away]
When she misses you - [ she's hurting inside ]
When she says its over - [ she STILL wants you to be hers ]
When she re-posts this bulletin - [ she wants you to read it ]
When she walks away from you mad - [ Follow her]
When she stare's at your mouth - [ Kiss her ]
When she pushes you or hit's you - [ Grab her and don’t let go ]
When she starts cursing at you - [ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]
When she ignores you - [ Give her your attention]
When she pulls away - [ Pull her back ]
When you see her at her worst - [ Tell her she's beautiful ]
When you see her start crying - [Just hold her and don’t say a word ]
When you see her walking - [ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ]
When she's scared - [ Protect her ]
When she lays her head on your shoulder - [ Tilt her head up and kiss her ]
When she steals your favorite hat - [ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]
When she teases you - [ Tease her back and make her laugh ]
When she doesn’t answer for a long time - [ reassure her that everything is okay ]
When she looks at you with doubt - [ Back yourself up with the TRUTH]
When she says that she likes you - [ she really does more than you could understand ]
When she grabs at your hands - [ Hold hers and play with her fingers ]
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When she bumps into you - [ bump into her back and make her laugh ]
When she tells you a secret - [ keep it safe and untold ]
When she looks at you in your eyes - [ don’t look away until she does ]
- Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything
-DON'T let her have the last word
-DON'T call her hot, but gorgeous or beautiful is soo much better
- Say you love her more than she could ever love you
- Argue that she is the best girl ever
- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go
- When she says she's OK don’t believe it, talk with her
- because 10 yrs later she'll remember you
- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her
- Call her before you sleep and after you wake up
- Treat her like she's all that matters to you
- Tease her and let her tease you back
-Stay up all night with her when she's sick
- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid
- Give her the world
- Let her wear your clothes
- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her
- Let her know she's important
- Kiss her in the pouring rain
- When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is;
"Who's ass am I kicking today baby?"
If you do post this in the next four minutes the one you love will:
Call you
Kiss you
Love you
Text you
Guys post as: "I'd be this Boyfriend"
Girls post as: "The boyfriend every girl would want"

an hour desire

2008-10-27T08:15:00.000-07:00

Maryams wedding is around the corner, subtly my heart trembled.the feeling of excited, worried everything la. She tried several baju pengantin in bangsar which matches her wedding theme that is “bali”. The last dress fits her perfectly. I hate to admit this but she looks spectacular.i wonder how mine would be. Haha boleh tak, da berangan nih *gatal.. the sad part is my exam is on that particular day, therefore everything will be a rush for me. Tak syok btol..i just hope that everything will goes smoothly.hueeeeee

beautiful.

2008-10-24T03:17:00.000-07:00

bear in mind , u are one of the beautiful part in my life. tq.

whoever my future might be.

2008-10-23T10:11:00.000-07:00

i longing to colour my life colourful. Including you as sparks which light every corner that might dull my life. We should be together every spring, taste the sweetness of flowers and rain drop. i saw us shining through. Stay with me while i grow old, design my life beautifully and colour it rainbow. I will assure you i will try my very best to be the best among the best for you. If you don’t find me, don’t worry, i will ok. I’ll try. everyday i'llset a pray for us. whoever you might be, i want you to know that i love you.

missing clouds =(

2008-10-21T23:07:00.001-07:00

Now that it's all said

and done I can't believe you were the one

To build me up and tear me down

Like an old abandoned house

What you said when you left

Just left me coldand out of breath

I fell too far, was in way too deep

Guess I let you get the best of meeee

-daughtry

mix feeling?

2008-10-18T00:06:00.001-07:00

should i give up on u?

its not easy

2008-10-10T06:12:00.000-07:00

I don’t know how I get the strength to get through this, living a life with someone by your side but eventually he’s miles away from what you expected can give a very ghastly feeling. Some people just couldn’t careless about others. I should say life is not as easy as it seems, when you're living on your own in this wild world but i will try my very best to keep holding on and eliminate this spiteful feeling.till now it is surprising enough for every people who knows me and even myself that i have this "sukatilah" attitude. Maybe now I should say that I’ve retired from being a devoter.simply bcoz im tired, just plain tired.

what alia ariffin means..

2008-10-04T09:05:00.000-07:00

"alia ariffin"
You are usually the best at everything ...

you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic “Type A” personality.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.

You are light hearted and accepting.
You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.
You tend to be pretty tightly wound.
it's easy to get you excited...
which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly.
You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time.
Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.
You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel.
You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you.
You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble.
But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.
You are loving, compassionate, and ruled by your feelings.
You are able to be a foundation for other people...
but you still know how to have fun.
Sometimes your emotions weigh you down, but you generally feel free from them.
You are very intuitive and wise.
You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination.
You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy.
You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

rayarayaraya

2008-10-02T10:40:00.001-07:00

Raya is not as contented as it used to be, but somehow we celebrate it blissfully. =)

some thought of u

2008-09-26T22:05:00.000-07:00

i respect you not just because you are older but i thought you are wiser,“in some circumstances” . you have your own perspective in everything which sometimes can cause mind-boredness but somehow you make me think twice. You are adorable in your own ways which bring brightness in our relationship. you have certain goals that always linger in your mind which cause you to be very imaginative. Again dear,impreza is worthless . tak cantik!. You may be naughty when you are around girls.i am jealous, but what the hell, that is you. It’s ok though. But i must say everything is happening too fast. I still don’t know a big part of you but i guess time will fix everything.
Ps:/ i have a superlative day yesterday =)
thanks flinstone, LKH

You!

2008-09-21T08:07:00.000-07:00

baby its you (^___________________^)

wordless wreck!

2008-09-21T07:02:00.000-07:00

Tied up my tongue with shivering knees ,each blood cells run cold in my veins, my heart thumping heavily and there will be a bullet shredding my skulls. This is what I’ve been facing since I was in primary school. Not just in public speaking but whenever I have to be the center of attention. It really is pathetic. As time past me by, I am now slowly developing every skill to eliminate my hogwash self attitude. Really am trying and startlingly I am now doing a degree in professional communication in English course. That is the core reason why I am now struggling every breath to compete with my other fellow classmate yg ckp English behabuk2 in public speaking class..*jealous nie..=D

isit logical?

2008-09-19T11:18:00.000-07:00

Certain people judge us by our external appearance. Is it logical for someone to say that u are a witch when your fingernails are coloured and U wear clothes which is different form others? I don’t think its fair. Human are more multifarious and appearance is only a small fraction of it. Why do some people being so judgmental? Each of us is unique in our own way and style, why don’t we just accept and respect one for whatever style they had chosen. By drawing quick conclusion on someone appearance will only lead to inaccuracy thoughts. Therefore ,Instead of judging one by external appearance why don’t you judge one by their thoughts and behavior which is more reasonable.

my hippo

2008-09-18T09:53:00.001-07:00

darling hippo,
i still want u if u gain a little weight
*wink wink

will i survive?

2008-09-18T09:51:00.000-07:00

Things are different now, no more syg this and syg that or syg lets go here and syg lets go there. At this moment I am no longer belong to a comfortable zone where I’m the first and even so there won’t be any second. “Just me” and now im down to negative zone. where even time and consideration will be a great matter .*daymn.

end.

2008-09-17T05:19:00.000-07:00

occasionally I have made up my mind,

our journey should end.

There’s no excuse for breaking my heart again.

You leave me for quite sometimes but its alrite,

it’s the feeling inside ,

and the look in your eyes

that I don’t like.

Boy I have to say

u hv broke my heart millions apart.

endlessly

2008-09-17T05:13:00.000-07:00

someone ask me to have a peek at this lyric.
it goes like this......
*i thought the lyric was great.

There's a part of me you'll never know
The only thing I'll never show
Hopelessly I'll love you endlessly
Hopelessly I'll give you everything
But I won't give you up
I won't let you down
And I won't leave you falling
If the moment ever comes

It's plain to see it's trying to speak
Cherished dreams forever asleep
Hopelessly I'll love you endlessly
Hopelessly I'll give you everything
But I won't give you up
I won't let you down
And I won't leave you fallingIf the moment ever comes

Hopelessly I'll love you endlessly
Hopelessly I'll give you everything
But I won't give you up
I won't let you down
And I won't leave you falling
But the moment never comes

matyn ariffin

2008-09-12T21:08:00.000-07:00

dear brother,

sometimes i feel like u understand every single beat of pressure, happiness in my heart. it may sound silly but ya that is why sometimes you are the one i hunt for.you may remain silence but with your "flinstone" hand hugin me somehow will ease my pain..brother, abdul matyn ariffin i miss you so greatly..=)

why do my brain keep on ignoring?

2008-09-09T09:54:00.000-07:00

Beneath the table lamb trying hard not to blink my eyes too frequently. Finding difficulties to keep my eyes open. Feeling every blood flowing smoothly to the brain asking for more and more ideas but it seems that the brain keep on ignoring. There’s a gigantic weight underneath my neck. The pressure is becoming more and more. Make me unable to think anything more than relevant. Hue…. byk btol assignment ni *sigh sigh

bintang that i miss greatly

2008-09-07T02:35:00.000-07:00

In every breathless night, there will always be a star who without fail stays by my side. But now that particular star has been taken away by the night. As time goes by , stars keep on multiplying in the sky but believe me dear star in my heart I will never let you go. Even you no longer shine sparkly like the others you will always be my “bintang”. As I am alone now, walking through my lonely night I always pray that night will always accompany you with it peacefulness and send my hugs n kisses to the only star which I miss greatly. May you never stop shining dear..

scratching my heart..

2008-09-05T01:44:00.000-07:00

bye bye dear love......
(^-'^)

ramadhan...(^-'^)

2008-09-02T05:36:00.000-07:00

after 19 years celebrating ramadhan with my heartbeat and this time i hv to depart from them for i am away in uitm shah alam.Without having them around ,my days turn gloomy.tears start to built blocks infront of my cornea.sob..sob (^_''^)i miss my tremendously marvelous moms cook..but somehow im grateful dat im still here standing on my feet inhaling every air to celebrate this ramadhan peacefully.the most thing im pleased is that someone is living in this ranadhan almubarak month =) *saytan*huahua

it's her day

2008-08-22T04:40:00.000-07:00

maryam's engagement (06.07.008)

with everybeat of my heart.

to love you forever

without having to put any comma
because u will be in every corner

of my heart .

congratulation to kak maryam n abg azizul

"may it last forever"

amen~

fraction of me.

2008-08-22T02:27:00.000-07:00

SURVEYHHHH.

1) What is the most important thing in your life?
-Family,money,future,hp.

2) What is the last thing that you bought with your own money?
-a necklace at forever twentyone.

3) How old do you think you will be permanently owned by your love?
- no idea

4) Are you in love?
- indeed i am.

5) Where was the last restaurant you had dinner?
-cant remember lah..

6) Name the latest book that you bought?
-critical thinking 3rd edition.

7) What is your full name?
- Alia ariffin bt mohd hussain.ariffin is actually my sir' name and can also be considered my name.

8) Do you prefer your mother or father?
-obviously both la woi..

9) Name a person that you really wish to meet in real life for the first time.
- Superman,he melts my heart *flirty( ^----^)

10) Christina or Britney?
-Christina.

11) Do you do your own laundry?
-yes and no.No, when im at home and yes when i get back to uni..

12) The most exciting place you want to go?
-his dream.possible?

13) Hugs or kisses?
- depends on my mood.

14)5 things I am passionate about:*not in any particular order*
1)fashion.
2)good food
3)MONEY!!
4)poetry
5)My loved ones

15)5 things I say too often:*not in any particular order*
1)otak lu..
2)shyts...
3)take care ya.
4)gile la.
5)i love you.

16)5 books I've read recently:*not in any particular order*
1)chicken soup for romantic soul.
2)the notebook by nicholas spark
3)critical thingking by gregory bassham,etc.
4)black book
5)DICTIONARY i noe ,be jealous.hahah T_________T

17)5 songs I could listen to over and over again:
1)dear god by avenged sevenfold.
2)wont go home without you by maroon5
3)oh carol by neil sedaka.
4)bad day by daniel powter
5)cupid by 112 ft babyface.

18)5things I learned last year:2007
1)never trust anyone 100% .plastic people do exist.
2)guys will always be guys.u need to accept or choose another
3)just be yourself in anyway you could.
4)free your mind.
5)study from the very first spot.hehe

particular burger

2008-08-21T13:02:00.000-07:00

dear burger,
im haapy dat i hd u as my supper.
the burger is chef by the hand of "someone" with full of love.
u end my day with a smile after i had faced a very dreadful day.
Thanks dear.

due to laziness

2008-08-21T12:19:00.000-07:00

just drop by to pop something here.k,for some days i cant get enough of my beauty sleep.hue..my mind cant stop thinking bout assgnmnt, test.. tons of them..dont have the backbone to finish it though.(due to my laziness ) huhu yes yes i noe its my blunder but somehow cant put 100% culpability on me..its holiday!so im just tryin 2 enjoy my holiday to the fullest..now it is about 3.3o in the morning so i betta walk off and continue doing my thang..

toodles~

bond'

2008-08-19T12:18:00.000-07:00

when two heart connected and become one it is unattainable to rupture it up. u'll wonder how can it be so hard? hue.....a glimmer believe in urself should be the answer to make it effortless
kot..huhu

keep holding on

2008-08-18T21:51:00.000-07:00

when 2 years of relationship have 2 put an end it stabbed my heart.I've learn alot.to love n to b loved is a great feeling.hes like a fire in my heart,who set my life at ease.he gave me strenght to go through lonely days.i feel safe whenever im in his arm,every way ill sneak a kiss from him 4 he got a lips of an angel.we may fight alot but we sure make up beautifully . But maybe just maybe we r not meant 2 b together,but if we will,we will find each other again alrite baby.dun worry..loving you is like food to my soul.somehow we got to move on and keep holding on to our goals..
aliaiman will remain stay in my heart.
forever it will.

depth of souls

2008-08-18T15:14:00.000-07:00

"LOVE IS CINTA"
regardless of our culture or religion,we all hv similar needs and dat is CINTA.love is the glue that give us civility,passion,desire,security, unconditionality and a reason 2 be.love is the threat that connects between 2 ppl and even so the human race.God,will find me one.

a man should be

2008-08-18T15:10:00.001-07:00

if im a man, ill learn how 2 treat woman right,tell them how beautiful they r in every way n wouldnt campare them to any other girl.shower her with love where no other man could give.make her life full of surprises n excitement which she dun have a clue wat will happen next.will b her bestfren when tears or laughter come along the way..be her sholder to cry on b the clown dat make her laugh n b like dr M where she can look up 2..ill make sure dat she will b secure with me in the present and even more in the future.b her superman when shes walking along the dark side of the road.catch her everytime she falls.. ask her to b strong n lead a life like a true woman,with a bright future n flawless physical..give her roses on her favourite day,give her space to breathe..i'll b a true man n make them happy..as for myself ill make sure dat ill hv my own great personality,killer abs,and a bright future where i can hold on 2..aahhhh if im a guy hahahah